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2009-09-06T02:56:00.001+08:00

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2009-07-14T23:13:00.002+08:00

honestly, its been a long long time ive updated the blog.. as day draws nearer to my ORD, its getting more busier..

the last month, has been a real roller coaster ride.. from being feeling shits to feeling happy like nobody business.. in the end, things were sorted out between me and gf.. we find time for each other, hang out and had heart to heart talks... things were being sorted out and thrash being thrown out..

werk has been really busy now days due to the segregation.. the team has been split and i am with the regulars.. im doing a regular job but paid as a NSF.. gosh.. why this way.. thank god its going to end soon.. which is like in a few hours time.. to be exact in like 6 hours time.. normal working schedule will commence onwards.. got to meet my friends again.. haha..

this post is meant for that someone special, GF..

the road for us has been tough.. we go through obstacles by obstacles everyday.. the quarrels and shouts we had brought us closer and we learnt from our mistakes.. it has taken us to where we are today.. i thanked you for being there for me even when ure busy.. i do appriciate you alot and i trully love you deeply.. i apologise for all my wrongdoings or harshness towards you all this while.. and i will try to be a good and sweet boyfriend as long as we are still together.. thats my promise.. i will take good care and love you as long as i still live..

2009-06-27T22:05:00.002+08:00

got to let it out here.. sort of an emergency post.. EP.. ok whateva..

lets think.. if your friends often find you if they have problems to share, who do you turn to when you have one? let say you're being the leader.. not leader of a gang la.. but among your circle of friends, its you who always have to iniatiate and come up with new things.. its like they will look upon u.. but when you're down with a problem, do you think you can turn to them? i am wondering this till deep thoughts and pity them.. i myself cannot help them..

it has reached to the level of ability to store whats inside.. but now it cant.. im gg to be free in a few months time.. alot of things has come my way and it really makes me insane.. my first option was to go operation and settle my leg once for all.. and now, my werk place has limited manpower that makes me feel half-hearted to bastard them and just go.. but they are supporting me to go as they encourage me to sign on.. thats the 2nd problem.. family pressure has been very great asking me to sign on.. THE PROBLEM IS, I CANNOT SIGN ON WITH MY CURRENT KNEE INJURY.. IM CACAT..
2nd option is for me to just continue working and do the operation later.. later = in a few years time.. but knowing myself, once i start work, i be a workaholic.. but doc advise me before, if i do not reconstruct, it'll get worse in the future.. you tell me how???

its as easy as said.. but honestly, having this feeling really sucks.. i have no definite answers to my questions.. well, i live day by day.. pretending nothing has happen.. call me a liar for lying.. but it really pains me when the day is getting nearer and nearer.. i cant possibly bastard my colleagues after what they have done for me.. guiding me to the top and being recognised.. i cant possibly let my parents down.. its almost time for me to repay them back.. so how??.. i prayed to GOD asking him to show me the way.. i know i have to be patience as all this are the challenges that were posed by him..i know im being abit emotional here but too bad.. its my blog.. i can just rant whatever i want here.. its been here for me since 5 years back.. the last resort i can look and shout to..

thanks blog..

2009-06-19T10:56:00.011+08:00

its been exactly a month since this page was updated.. gosh.. defeat the purpose of having a blog.. haha.. but still, lets update what i have in mind..

the tides have change and my luck has been better.. alhamdullilah.. bought a whole new set of fishing rod and reel.. with a very tight budget, i manage to get the good stuff.. all thanks to friends like nur and najeeb.. caught a few first time fishes for me.. haha.. i was over-joyed and thrilled.. only my fishing kakis knows how happy i was.. because before this.. i never enjoyed a real catch before other then usads/Catfish.. ok let me show you some action..

ok first fish of the new rod.. ikan duri..

2nd fish of the new rod.. suprisingly.. ikan tudung periok..

the catches for the day minus usad/catfish.. pari and two sisik are not mine..

ok lets continue with the rest of the updates.. well lets talk about NS.. three months plus, and im totally done with it.. now the pressure is on.. almost 3/4 of the people around me including family, colleagues and some friends wants me to sign on.. gosh.. its so stress up.. my mind is not make up yet.. i have to think about money wise.. i want to achieve what i have dream all this years.. i have to think about my operation.. alamak.. alot of unanswered questions.. all due to the AWARDS that i recieve that i got push by them to sign on.. shittos.. help plz..

on the other side.. went to visit the SCDF 1st Division Heritage Centre.. learnt alot there.. firefighters are great risk savers that save and protect life and property.. i want to go there again as there was no time to snap enough pictures.. but here are some of the pics..

the fire truck that was use from 1940s to 1960s.. if im not wrong..

the normal firefighter..

the dart with the dog..

the dart doing rescue work..

the REAL firefigther.. guess who..

the first fire truck.. from 1903 to 1930s..

the fierce WARRANT OFFICER as our tour guide.. 30 over years in service fighting fire.. and suddenly he shout, "BUKAK AIR!!!"

listening attentively to the history of firemen..

the fire ladder that was use to save lives and bring the dead down..

ok lets continue.. i have been busy during the off days.. once in a while in the mood to write songs.. one of it is done and now underway with another.. it may shock to some of you and some of you might be wondering since when i was into song composing.. well, its a new hobby to kill time.. haha.. some pics again.. but the pics were taken using my sis new LIMUX camera..

stress thinking of lyrics..

the lead guitarist..

the girl who helps always..

ok folks.. till here aite.. hear from me again yeah..

2009-05-20T03:55:00.002+08:00

sori peeps.. its been a long time since i log on here and update about life..

oh my oh my oh my.. haha.. life been pretty busy with events.. everyday there will be always things to do and to be finished within the same day.. lets me tell you bit by bit alright..

as for NS, its like 4 and half months left to serve the country.. i am proud of serving the country and through hard work and perserverance, i am going to receive big awards.. haha.. i am going two Awards from Commisioner of Police.. one for Individual Commendation and the other for Team Commendation.. Going to receive the STAR Service Awward in November.. haha.. a good way to end my NS life.. and a highlight of my life that i can look back and be proud of..

as for silat, well its as per normal but there will a few tasks to do in the upcoming months.. a few performances is coming up.. gosh.. competitions are coming up and i am really short handed.. thank god some of my brothers are ORD-ing soon from NS.. but no so soon till end of the year..

as for friends, met eyqa dat day at EASTPOINT to show morale support for FAST who is participating in Anugerah.. well fast, you make to the second round, try harder next year alright.. sorry eyqa, didnt stay long with u.. went to HENDERSON WAVE with gf, afnan, burg and norma that day.. it was a day full of enjoyment and fun.. tiring but not so bad for me but the rest cant take it.. haha..

as for gf, she is into her final year of her poly life.. therefore, she will be busy with school.. projects, meetings and stuff.. i understand as i have been in her shoes before.. as a result, we have been busy with our own schedules.. we rarely meet and spent time with each other though.. but gf, there is nothing for you to be guilty about.. i know sometimes that i may be too selfish.. but i scolded myself for being so.. im truly sorry.. i know im letting it out in public but i just tell you that i trully understand you situation and you should never give up on school just for us.. remember, you should work hard for final year.. you education will be impt to you in the future dear.. rmbr, with determination and perseverence, we can overcome anything in our way.. love you..

ok people, thats all for now, for pics, you can go to my facebook or my gf's blog aites.. tata..

2009-05-12T13:12:00.001+08:00

change of blogskin people.. but i be back yeah..

2009-04-30T12:48:00.005+08:00

ok.. lets read the updates..

24 april..
my last day of working b4 i start my leave.. haha.. one week of break and ive been longing for this day.. haha.. end wrk early and off to silat..

25 april.. (pics below)
start of my holidays.. haha.. got a soccer game in the morning.. went over and played almost fll game.. fall out of the game in the very last minute due to injury and they scored right after i left the field.. haha.. so in the end my team (consisting of RADIO DIVISION) drew 1-1 with (NPPK Security Unit).. gf came down to watch and she followed me home at noon.. slack for a while wash up and head down to SENTOSA.. it was a pre-celebration for my birthday.. who else but my silat people came down.. fun joy and laughter as i summarise everything.. reach home in the late evening..

26 april.. (pics below)
went to silat meeting in the afternoon and it was hanging out session soon after that.. location? under my void deck.. we talk about the good old days and as well as the changes over the past few years.. it was interesting.. very interesting.. all disperse around 9.. i thought my day end there but it wasnt.. Nur gave me a call and ask me out for fishing.. o ok.. very last minute though.. grab my stuff and hurried down and Nur fetch me.. the bad thing is that it was so last minute till we cant find the bait.. haha.. search all around pasir ris and found prawns at SHOP AND SAVE.. reach location at around 1 and cast at 1.30. within minutes, Nur got the first fish.. duri la dok.. haha.. as usual, i end up with no catch at all.. lks lie what GF said was right.. i need a new rod.. haha..

27 april.. (pics below)
ok its the check-in day for my bday chalet.. after fishing in the wee hours of the morning, i was so lazy too wake up till im not sure myself what time must i check in.. GF checked in out for me and i was still in bed.. the weather was too hot that i took a cab down to check in.. how lazy i am.. hang out in the chalet alone for quite some time before afnan and sofea came.. GF came soon after that followed by hafiz.. the first day was rather sharing probs with each other..

28 april.. (
its the big day and yes.. a year older.. ive reached the double 2.. happy birthday to me.. well wake up in the morning and headover to NTUC @ TM for groceries shopping with burg and GF.. bought chicken and bla bla bla.. went over to burg house for the cooking part.. thunderstorm broke through the skies and it was raining heavily.. i thank god i decide to cook the food and not BBQ it.. haha.. everything was done around 3 and cabbed down the food back to the chalet.. by the time sofea, afnan and norma came down.. kak baya and yana with the boys came down followed by guru and hafiz.. thanks people for coming.. sorry as i make this chalet just a small gathering with no cutting of cake or whatsoeva..

29 april..
ok.. i woke up, and i thought it was still early.. but i thought wrong.. i look at my watch and it was 8+.. i woke those who need to go to school and the rest in the chalet.. haha.. thanked me for waking u people up or you be totally late for school.. haha.. off they went and me, burg and norma, clean up the chalet and check out at ten.. cabbed home and doze off till afternoon.. went silat as per normal in the evening and thats how i end my day.. haha..

ok its pics time..

25th April..
love..

the people who make my day..

ive been hit..

the one i can depend on..

on the way there..

26 april.. Fishing with nur..
the DURI that NUR caught..

27 - 29 april.. the chalet..
sofea..

afnan..

GF bored while me and BURG cooking..

MEN at work.. cooking..

2009-04-23T22:39:00.003+08:00

ok.. i try my best to update as much as i can and wen im free.. haha.. the truth is, i was like thinking for 10 mintues to blog or not to blog for this post.. haha.. so damn like girl.. haha..

so the past few days was full with new exprience and learning points.. its getting stressful day by day.. but i keep telling myself, take things one at a time and prioritise..

work is better now and im looking forward for tmrw.. im going for one week leave the day after tmrw.. woohoo... the long awaited break has come.. thank god.. kak haslinah is back and its good to have her back...

alot of things has changed in silat for the past year.. (hmm.. ok why m i talking about changes over the year? its as if, i nvr updated the blog for a year.. haha..) more and more things to be done in silat.. performance for mother's day is coming up.. and really, its oni left a few people in there that i could depend on.. thanks to you pple..

ok.. lets talk about shopping.. it was yesterday after night shift, my colleague treated some of us to breakfast and i, farris and khairul, went over to kak haslinah place to slack and talk.. eventually, farris has no plans after that.. therefore, being the good fren, haha, i sacrifice my sleep and went around tampines int with farris, with intention of taking a look at the new TAMPINES1.. we headed over around 2 and window shop things around there.. my eyes caught wih alot of things.. from there, we ate lunch beside CK shop.. believe or not, chicken rice there is selling at $1.80.. haha.. after lunch we went over to the other two malls and thats where i cant resist and shop.. i bought a bag at TM.. and went over to CenturySquare to buy myself a bermudas and slack at MACDONALDS near interchange while waiting for GF.. soon after GF came, the three of us went to COTTON ON at TM and bought myself a tshirt.. gosh.. money just gone like that within ours.. and guess what, i spent 2pm till 6pm at tampines shopping malls.. haha.. and money gone like that.. boo hoo..

just now was in-service and we went to HORTPARK @ HYDERABAD road off alexandra road.. and its REALLY HOT.. but overall its a nice place.. headed over to TAKA, SEOUL GARDEN, for team retreat.. celebrated Kak Sadiah birthday there and head home soon after.. haha.. thats all for now.. pictures will be uploaded soon as the pics are not from my camera.. haha..

2009-04-21T15:56:00.002+08:00

sorry, sorry a thousand apologies.. i aplogies for the irregular updates nowdays.. honestly its been busy and its not been a smooth sail for the past few weeks.. let see, the last time i update was 0604.. today its 2104.. 15 days.. ok.. shall update you guys briefly what happen the past 15 days.. sit tight and enjoy reading..

9th april..
wen over to cantoment to make payments for my big day and its confirmed.. selected guests will be invited.. haha.. the day i get a year older.. wooohoo.. getting closer and closer..

14th april..
a new group, new fun.. went over to the newly renovated bedok jetty for fishing with my new fishing kakis at night till morning.. naj and naz.. nur came down also.. had fun and entertainment by this pakcik mail.. hahah.. silat later during the day and expose to them to more intensive moves..

18th april.. (pics to be uploaded soon)
this time round it was changi ferry terminal with the new clique.. farris n gf tag along this time and farris won it that day.. he caught 4 and the rest of us nothing.. what luck he has.. head over to jalan kayu at 5 in the morning for very late supper cum breakfast.. and guess what.. nur was there with his uncle.. he went to another new fishing spot.. exciting.. we plan to head over and search and survey the fishing spots in singapore soon..

alot of my time has been with fishing.. if not, i be at home or silat or work.. thats all for now..

2009-04-06T13:48:00.007+08:00

ok listen up.. this will be a very long post.. due to the very long time i never update.. its going to be about what i did for the last month.. so sit tight and read up..

17-18 March.. (pics refer to bottom)
myself and 9 other colleagues from my work place head over to batam for a short getaways.. its rather a budget trip but in the end, i overspend down there.. BATAM is the place to shop.. alot things are FREAKING cheap down there. from toiletries, food and ETC.. even though the country is laid back, honestly, its a good place for a short getaway.. people say batam is the place where men go for SEX.. but disagree.. for me, i wun mind gg there often for shopping and relaxation.. the food there is superb.. if singapore have KFC.. lets welcome BATAM's BFC (BEST FRIED CHICKEN) its super cheap and super nice.. haha.. it was a memorable trip.. down there i see how hard life is for certain groups and being in a foreign country makes me want to know the locals and their lifes much more better.. with the scenery and walks of life from pple down there, i thank god for who and what i have back at home.. wonderful trip shall i say..

21 March.. (pics refer to bottom)
a big day for my friend, BURG.. its her sister's wedding.. i went down to the wedding with my gf, and a few silat friends to show him support.. our friend was very anxious as he was running to and fro to make sure everything run smoothly for the wedding.. unable to talk to him much as he was too bz.. me, hafiz, BURG, presented to the bridegroom some silat demostration and ate our breakfast/lunch there.. soon after we left the wedding to catch MALL COP at suntec.. overall i should say its a good movie and i rate it 5/5.. hilarious and fun.. ate dinner with the rest at SIMPANG BEDOK.. me and gf den send lil girl AZNI home and we head home ourselves after that..

22 March..
nothing much in the day.. went silat in the afternoon.. catch a football match at MANGO FIELD.. after that met up with BURG and talk about the wedding the day before.. our conversation turn to when are we all getting married.. on a personal note.. im 22 this year.. and im ending my NS soon.. work come next and 4 to 5 years time, is the age that suppose to get married.. woah.. dats fast.. my god.. but $$$ comes first before getting married.. haha..

1st April.. (pics refer to bottom)
few days before this date, ive been having cravings for new phones.. and to be specific, touch screen hp.. i search on the net for phones dat met my budget.. i went out with gf to survey handphones.. dats how enthu i was.. soon later, starhub and my father was my saviour.. in concidently, my father wants to get a new line, whereas starhub was selling the phone i wanted.. haha kill two birds with one stone.. get father to come down with me to purchase his line and my phone.. and guess what, im loving the new phone.. haha.. and this will be the day i rmbr, you guys played a prank on me.. coz its APRIL fool..

ok.. it pics time..

BATAM TRIP

part of us..

myself and faisal..

its batam FLYER..

its us and STACEY SILY..

i adore the sight of the waters..

on our way there..

thanks to PAK BADAR (father's friend) that helps us alot over there..

WEDDING PICS..

i didnt realise that ths pic was taken..

my lovely girls..

Groupie 1..

Groupie 2..

my pretty gf and me..

MY NEW PHONE..

LG KUR990R

2009-03-03T23:34:00.004+08:00

monday was fun.. and i mean really fun.. after a long time, gf was neglected, i brought gf out.. my main intention was to get myself a slipper.. but.. something else happen..

we went to Queensway to find my slipper.. but too bad, none of shops have slippers that can catch my eyes.. moving on, we went to IMM.. lets recall my main motive.. TO GET MYSELF A SLIPPER.. instead, i get gf a blouse and a shirt.. had dinner there and bought some necessities over there.. head home after having a heavy dinner..

the journey home was filled with pics.. here they go..

being emo..

big round eyes..

????

when puffer meets sotong..

mega MAC for the MAN!!!

GF up YOURS!!

BF follows.. up YOURS!!

PIC OF THE DAY!!

LASTLY,

i'm sorry for neglecting all this while.. i know you've be patient with me.. i PROMISE, many more of such days, will come.. we stay strong together.. love you puteri..

2009-02-27T00:02:00.006+08:00

its been a very2 long time since i update here.. lots of people psycho me to go to facebook and in the end i did.. ok la.. nuting much that interest me..

been busy lately.. done with friendly and another coming.. got an offer to coach but i am not liable for the answer.. so if it deems to go well, my schedule is going to get tighter..

fatty bom bom

Everyone in the family saddens upon hearing ASMIDAH BTE JAMAL (above left), can be leaving the family anytime soon.. rmbr, she is a foster child dat came to my family to be taken care of with love and the feeling of a family..

honestly, this lovely girl made my house more bubbly and vibrant.. she will greet me everytime i reach home and will rush to be the first to salam me.. she kept reminding others that i work in police and i will catch them if they are bad to her.. haha.. she's coming to 3 this year.. it tears me upon hearing the news but i held it back..

i could only wish if i could adopt her.. but we have to abide to the foster ruling and we have to let her go if needed by the authorities.. i find the above picture perfect for her if she really leaves.. just look at the words on the pillow..

as for now, i treasure every moment i have time to spent with her.. she's a darling to me.. and i pray hard, the separation would be much more longer.. but i cant be selfish.. she still young and she needs a permanent place to stay.. so to whom she is going to be with next, take good care of her.. she has a bright future..

2009-02-18T12:54:00.001+08:00

its been a while since i update this blog.. well been busy lately with the FRIENDLY, and change in work shift.. i promise i update you guys, when i have the picture..

2009-02-05T13:00:00.005+08:00

It was the first song for me but a number for him. The song we both created it together. This is the song that is all left in our friendship. Both of us have taken our own journey in pursuing our dreams. This is the soveniour of our friendship. May you be successful in whatever you do and lead a happy and easy life. This song shall be with me as i grow older and older. "Hanyalah Dirimu" will be remembered always. Take care my friend..

Its not that clear.. but i tried my best to upload it.. get the original from me..

Hanyalah dirimu.mp3 - Hendra and Azran

2009-02-01T22:14:00.003+08:00

honestly, i need to blog to let it out..

i simply duns know whats wrong with me.. its like URRGGHH!!!!... i cant complain because its my responsibilities.. but at times, URRGGH!! i just cant let it out.. im really tied up and i sacrifice too much.. but the least i can do is to tell myself, all these will have a blessing in disguise.. AMIN..

2009-01-31T13:44:00.007+08:00

for now my mind went blank on what to blog.. went fishing on thursday at punggol seventeen.. not much catch though.. i am dissapointed with some people but what can i say, its their life not mine.. life been too busy for me and seriously, i have no time for myself.. ok la.. thats all in my mind.. just look at some pics k..

its taken after work at 2am in the morning.. tired but still in the mood for pics.. all coz of gf..

just after reporting off..

changed and ready to blast..

2009-01-25T11:43:00.002+08:00

busy.. busy.. busy..

ok honestly, its like i cannot recall what i did for the past week.. what i can remember i only work, go for training and thats it.. gosh.. life getting dull and dull for me.. honestly, i rarely go out.. ask my gf.. my peeps asked me if i do spent time with my own gf.. well the answer is yes.. but we spent our time together and meet me up during silat.. as for personally, just the two of us, NO.. its been a long time we spent time together.. how i miss the time, i have my gf all by myself..

2009-01-20T15:41:00.003+08:00

its an out of the BLUE post.. was bloggin hopping and it an idea pop-up for the next post.. so listen up..

gf is sick and she's really sick.. pity her.. she just takeover a high post and the week after she fall sick.. her voice rocks.. her nose red.. haha.. so later gg over to house to help her carry things before heading down to training.. just like old woman.. haha.. no offence k gf..

lately, i rarely have freetime for myself.. its been quite a while i went fishing.. and its been a while i chill and hangout.. everything now since to be a rush.. even some people think ive loosen weight.. haha..

ok here are some msg for those people who read my blog..
gf - get well soon
dila - its not that im too engrossed with my fishing, its just that ive no time..
eyya - we only took picture just the two of us once only, its so pathetic.. so contact me soon..
eyenie - enjoy reading my blog..
byzura - u look quite upset.. msg me if you need someone to talk to..

2009-01-19T11:09:00.003+08:00

sat was great.. try out my new clothes and shoes and went out..

first stop was to TAMAN WARISAN to watch the process of mandi keris.. it was sorching hot.. but i did not get to see what i wanted.. instead, i watched the wedding procession and the standing of keris.. and that was it.. it really starts to bore me.. so gf and me search for a nearest 7-11 and grab ourselves a drink while waiting for the burg, jack and norma finish looking around..

so next stop was VIVOCITY.. it was rather a last minute decision to go there as there no was no other plans.. grab tickets to watch ONG BAK 2.. a great movie but a sucky ending.. had early dinner at SEAH IM before the movies and burg ate the thaksin beef noodle.. poor fren.. he was pespiring as if he was running when he ate it.. all just because of the chilli..

final destination was home.. haha.. had to werk the next day.. and here i am waiting for the night shift later but before that, wana kick some balls at court later..

it was around three years ago, the unfortunate thing happen.. everything was not normal since then.. life changed and living in a new environment... still struggling with it though.. wondering this september can really cure it.. whats today is not to be blame.. its fate and its accepted.. wake me up when september comes..

2009-01-15T10:49:00.005+08:00

fuuuhhh.. its been like almost a week i last update.. sorry la pple.. some probs here and there.. well lets start..

been a busy week for me rather.. meetings on sundays.. went shopping and catching-a-movie on monday.. graduation for silat on tuesdays.. werk then rush to training on wednesday.. and here i am on thursday waiting for work later..

so for shopping, i bought myself quite a number of things.. two tshirts, one junkies and a pair of shoes.. i think thats enough for now.. my main objective next is to buy a new hp.. my buttons are almost hard to press.. went to sim lim that day and found the phone that i want.. but cash was short.. so i hope next month will be buying it..

my colleagues have confirm that we are going to BATAM for holidays in march.. got to save a lot for now.. and looking back, since been a long time i go for a holiday.. cant wait for it.. gota have a lot of money soon as my buying list is getting more and more.. so gona find extra income for now on.. till then.. take care..

SINGAPORE sleeps safely because of cops like US..

2009-01-09T01:52:00.010+08:00

whats your dream? what do you want your future to be like?

from now on, im unable to answer those questions.. gosh.. i have to sacrifice my dreams.. and seriously, this is not the first time.. the feeling is so sucky.. but if its not me then who else.. i redha myself to GOD for the challenges he put me through.. this is really a big one.. i need to sacrifice them two save somethings.. i at a point that i feel like giving up.. but i got to hang on.. gosh..

my stress has not doubled, but mutiplied by infinity.. i got to reorganise things in silat and carry out a project with limited resources.. honestly its a huge moutain task.. but im gona take it.. willingly and diligently doing it.. i was sworn to be with silat and this is my path.. but sometimes, silat just make me feel better.. teaching those kids really make me smile.. well im doing this not because im forcing myself, but it runs it the blood and its my responsbility to carry on and make the group succeed..

overall, i need support.. i need guidance.. YA ALLAH, give me strength and patience to overcome all this.. AMIN..

its darkness now.. i need the light of strength to revive myself..

2009-01-06T23:26:00.003+08:00

ok.. i am tired now but still have the energy to blog due to requests.. haha.. so lets start..

yesterday, went fishing with the CREW of 999.. four of us.. nur, faisal, farris and myself.. so whats the catch? two crabs (one fell of the sea back), one eel-alike, around 6 usad (catfish look-alike) and a toad fish (a fish but give a sound like a toad).. but the bad news is that, all of those was not catch by me.. asdkljaslkdjal.. well its ok.. as a consolation, i get a few small fishes that i catch for the use of a bait.. haha.. well we went early in the morning around ten and fish all the way till 10pm.. it was hot.. but windy.. laughter after laughter while waiting for the fishes.. during lunch, we ate like a bangla.. two packet of white rice, one packet of kari, and a packet of chicken.. just like the other banglas.. haha..

and the joke of the day.. since we were fishing at punggol jetty, we expected small boats and ships to passby quite near to where we are.. and there was one time, a boat wanted to past our site and we reel in our line, expecting that the fishes would rise up when the boat passed it.. nur, being the enthu one, cast his rod and guess what, it landed on the boat.. OMG.. it was effing funny.. even the driver of the boat, turn and look.. OMG.. we were laughing our heads off..

gf did join me for fishing around 6 and my luck did not even change.. but what the hell.. i dun mind getting or not.. went home and straight KO..

werk was fine for me today but its stressful and tiring.. i was fighting with myself to keep myself awake.. rush-ed after werk ends thinking of going to training but cannot make it.. and here i am now..

payday is coming soon and lots of things to settle.. i hope, i am able to save some money this time round... ok la.. i will upload the fishing pics soon..

im missing you every minute.. you're just a sweetheart..

2009-01-04T21:44:00.004+08:00

ok fishing is the new in-thing that interest me now.. it interest me till i bought the whole fishing set.. haha.. eventually i did not use my money.. the FORCE gave hundred to spent.. so what else can i spent on.. haha..

well nothing much happen today.. its just that i have not sleep since like 4 plus yesterday? all due to back to back events.. from werking 7pm to the next day 8am.. to breakfast with faisal and nur till 10+.. till shopping fishing groceries till 12+.. then silat meeting/training/hanging out session till 9pm.. haha.. till now, not yet sleep.. haha..

now im in my room relaxing for a while till i start cleaning up my room down here.. then pack the stuff for fishing tomorrow.. yeah.. going fishing at punggol jetty.. i want to return revenge on the ikan duri that i miss.. till then see yeah..

its me and my new hobby..

*And GF will say, "Asyik pancing je.. tak habis2 dgn pancing die" haha.. *

2009-01-03T15:53:00.005+08:00

reCAP

its been long since i express myself here.. for me, blogging is just a space where i can let out my small little feelings that maybe unknown to the people around me.. alright.. where shall i start..

2008

what a year it was.. one word to describe it.. BUSY.. it was really a busy year for me.. alot of things to juggle.. ns.. family.. silat.. gf.. and friends..

NS has been great.. i accomplised a few achievements during that year.. being the NS man for my team was the joy i did not expected.. haha..

family.. what can i say.. the fatty bom-bom added joy to the family.. this girl is very cute.. whereas she is the one who keeps the family going.. haha.. she cover the darkness that engulf my family.. but she's not enough.. just not enough..

silat is what keep me going.. projects after projects.. obstacle after obstacle i have to overcome.. thank god there is someone who share the responsibility with me now and the challenges i get is getting harder and exciting..

gf.. splendid.. she is the one that supports me in what ever i do.. really being the backbone in everything i do.. what can i say.. she is simply superb.. i really owe alot to her.. i have been focusing too much on myself and not her.. i thank god for having such a gf like her.. i promise her, 2009 will be a different year.. i told her that i'll change for the better and bring an answer to the woes of her heart..

friends distracts us now and then.. friends that kill are waiting for us anytime.. friends that treasure us, cant hardly be seen.. i loose a lot fo friends during that year but was cautious in making new friends.. for the benefit of myself.. ok time for pics of the 2008..

the joy of my life..

the latest pic of me.. i know i have grown..

this is the year i start composing songs.

raya 2008..

simply my life..

WELCOME 2009..

2009-01-03T15:49:00.001+08:00

lets welcome myself back after a long time i have not engaged myself in blogging.. just look at the date.. its two years since this blog was last used.. haha.. did move to livejournal but its not a use.. now, im back in here.. lots of stories to tell.. lots of tales to share..

2007-04-10T12:03:00.000+08:00

ive move to a new add.. relink me ya peeps..

thanks..

http://indy23.livejournal.com

amin..

2007-03-13T20:31:00.000+08:00

sorry people.. long time no update.. im gg through a hard process in my life.. hope u guys understand ya.. wil be back wen im ok rite.. suffering la..

2007-02-06T08:56:00.000+08:00

a post dedicated for you.. my fren..

we'll pray for you to recover fully.. we be there for you if u need us.. god will be there wen u need him.. stay strong my fren..

2007-01-27T12:16:00.000+08:00

three walls,
a ceiling,
a floor and
a gate..

it feels so cold..
unprotected by none..
a feeling..
that i cant describe..

the aftermath of cane..
an unbearable pain..
the wounds are burning..
burning in despair..

hearing the sentence was easy..
carrying it was heavy..
no matter how long it takes..
life will change..

when freedom came..
its not about fame..
a normal human being..
but being watch by all..

once you are,
you always be..
once a convict..
always a convict..

2007-01-25T10:28:00.000+08:00

siapalah yang kau maksud kan.. aku ingin tahu di sudut hati ku ini..

ok people.. that was the opening line.. meant for those who visit my blogs.. haha..

ok life now same as usual.. very the busy.. isint like bored when you continuing sainyg life is busy2 always? haiz..

i wana pour out my personal feelings but i dun tink ive the authority.. anw, wen for army test.. pest C.. la.. dun mind la get pest cacat or BEsar or Awesome.. one ting i noe get the 2 years done and over it and dats it.. oh ya.. floorball team got into the finals.. congrats guys.. win the medals and make us proud..

stress is going to be over soon.. lets say in three weeks??

2007-01-18T23:54:00.000+08:00

gosh.. i feel like pouring it out but not here.. not anywhere... haiz.. where can i go to do it eh.. hmm..

life was mundane..
till someone special came..

dull turn to colours..
silence turn to sounds..

was it a change..
or was it just a lucky day..

as time pass by..
things seems not to be change..

as what i see..
and thats what i got..

never i asked for it..
but it still came indeed..

i asked myself, was it a game..
game told me, it wasnt a game..

do i have to just have to stay straight on the road..
or should i leave it behind and make a new turn..

time is ticking..
the bomb is blowing..

ive not got much time..
till the day come..

ammend the flood gates..
find the key and unlock it..

its fading away..
too fast too soon..

im trying my best to assure myself..
but u do have a part to play the game..

solve this riddle..
and you know what i mean..

peace out..

2007-01-17T23:40:00.000+08:00

hello people.. haha damn sorry la.. was damn busy with sch.. sem 3 is like fast and very busy..

hmm where shall i start? ok with the bad news ferst..cause god loves her more, my god grandmother has passed away on the 7th of jan 2007 around 8 plus.. i so missed her and gona missed her cooking.. sorry grandma for not able to see u for the last time.. and from now on i will heed those advice you have told me b4.. will miss you grandma.. semoga allah mencucuri roh nye dan letak kan beliau dengan org2 soleh dan soleha..

ok guys.. lets talk bout sch now.. sch been very2 busy and thats good.. make time flies very the fast.. believe or not one more month n im done with poly life.. haha. so good..

talking bout good, alot of good things has been good for this year.. i was awarded the INDIVIDUAL STAR AWARD FOR MARKETING RESEARCH CENTRE.. its really an honour to be receiving that award.. and my entre grade has been good.. top grade la.. but we will pursue hard to get higher grades..

gf has been ok.. she half way through it.. she's been a great help for me.. and i thank you alot.. and our two years is coming..

NS is coming la.. and so is my Big operation.. how man.. operation or ns ferst.. haiz.. help me decide man.. haha life after poly is interesting but tough..

ok man.. till here.. k.. see ya..

and so..

those smile.. those advice...
will be heeded.. and i will strive..

your touch.. your love..
are irreplaceble..

now you're gone..

forever be gone..

here i yearn for you..

thirsting for you love..

my prayers will always be with you..

and so my love for you..

for my god grandmother.. 2007

2006-12-19T22:01:00.000+08:00

hey3.. its been a really long time since ive updated my blog here.. alot of reasons la why i never update..

ferst was because of im tired of the blog skin.. so i decided to make a change.. second was the very pack schooling schedules right after the end of attachment.. and lots more of reasons..

so here how the story goes in the past one month..

right after attachment, there was no break.. and it was school all the way.. getting back to sch was fun.. able to make a lot of noise.. meet the different gangs in sch.. and back to lect and tutorial.. hmm.. haha.. that's part one..

gf was having attachment two weeks after i came back sch.. poor thing for her.. her attachment place was not tat good.. pple were unfriendly.. anw gf, dun be to sad k.. look forward to feb..its coming very2 fast.. and try to do well in the assigments that they give you k.. n i try my best to motivate you whenever i can..

projects and projects.. these year three thingy is like having final year project and studies together.. very the hard you see.. projects are like so pack.. back to back.. and ica oh my god.. non stop week after week.. but nvmd.. its my last sem.. so i must do well and score well as well.. must push my gpa up..

talking bout gpa, recently, or shud i say, last week, my attachment results came out.. ive got an A for it.. haha so damn happy la.. haha.. all those hard werk.. sweat.. curses.. haha.. in the end, i was rewarded.. tanks to everyone that make it happen.. and same goes to you gf, for giving me morale support all the time..

so fast, and its nearly end of the year.. 2006 was like a zoom2 for me.. alot of tings happened.. alot la.. bad.. the good one.. and alot more.. hmm.. didnt actually acheieve my new year resolution .. ahah..nvmd 2007 i try k.. but i think 2007 will be more a hectic year.. going to NS .. and having my operation.. road to recovery la dei.. ok la.. till here.. later i talk more k.. take care.. tataz..

2006-11-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

why all this has to happen now.. when suddenly all problems rush like mad water.. everything happens with a reason.. but why cant i find one for mysekf.. whats happening to me.. darn la.. it just sucks la.. being torn apart by different world..

it doesnt meant that im busy and i dont talk to you i forget about you.. you are in my thoughts always.. nvr did i did not think about u.. even though im studying or busy with projects, you are always there.. thinking always how were you doing.. haiz.. ure not the only one who misses me.. i oso miss u la.. adn i purposely dun wana show it la.. coz u once before say i must be strong.. so ya.. even though my heart calls for you, i just kept quiet..

i noe ive been a bad bf.. neglecting u and stuff.. but ntah la.. with time not letting me have a perfect time with u, i duno wat else to do.. sumtimes i try to do my best but fail.. but sumtimes i wonder, things must oso be fair for us..u and me and not only u.. or me..

ntah la.. ctinue later.. alot of tings in my mind and i dunoe how to say it out..

2006-11-24T09:43:00.000+08:00

hey people.. its been very quite a while since i last update.. two weeks i guess? well life has been very busy la.. ok here how it goes..

exactly two weeks ago, i ended my attachment.. haha freedom la dey.. haha.. so let me conclude what i think about IPP.. fun.. great learning experience and great friends there.. to all noel staff, thanks a million for making my stay a WONDERFUL time haha.. and to my other three IPP friends there, jia you.. dun give up ok.. time will past by very fast.. (i will upload the pics soon)

after that was back to old usual school.. misses sch.. and i met my friends and school once again.. timetable was okay.. and when i came back to sch, it was like way behind time with my friends.. did alot of catch ups with them.. had lunches.. had lepaking session at mac.. and the wonderful smoker friends at smoking area.. haha.. gona die soon if i continue passive smoking.. haha.. weekends nowdays have been great.. almost everyweek go out with friends and there's the time i catch up with my lepaking frens.. haha.. (will upload the pics soon..)

end of attachment means start of working part time again.. working at spinelli peninsula has always be fun.. the fun pple dere nvr chnge.. and thats the reason why i dont like to work at other outlet.. only peninsula is the best.. fun fun fun..

raya has ended and silat has started.. haha.. and to kak baya and guru, congratulation on your new born baby.. silat is gg to be very busy during the weekends with alot of performance and preparation for the big event.. wait and see on 07/01/2007... (pics will be uploaded soon)

as for gf, im really sorry if ive negelected you.. i noe ive been doing dat.. last minute cancellation for our dates.. and getting sick for our dates.. im really sorry.. this is your last week of sch i didnt spend much time with you.. im really sorry.. i noe u miss me alot.. so do i.. i just hope sch will loosen up for me in the upcoming weeks and i will try to make more time for you.. i hope u understand.. i feel very bad.. very very bad..

ok folks thats all for the long update.. keep in touch..

2006-11-14T23:55:00.000+08:00

when u get angry with ur partner? the best way is to go out with another person?

2006-11-04T09:49:00.000+08:00

freaking five days to go.. five damn days.. haha

at last.. five days to go.. everything will past very fast.. haha.. and freedom day is gg to be there soon.. haha

well this week has been a hectic week.. alot of stuffs happen..

when shopping with gf on tues.. bugis was our destination.. she bought shoes and bag.. well i unexpectedly bought jacket.. haha the long waited jacket has arrived.. thanks to you gf..

then the next two days nothing happen.. and oh ya.. met up with gf yest.. nice seeing you gf..

today.. gg out with the silat pple for hari raya.. this is my third hari raya outing.. the ferst two being with my family.. hope i enjoy myself with my friends.. and tonight gg to changi chalet for berfdae chalet.. haha.. weekends are like treasures to me.. haha..

enjoy2.. five freaking days left..

2006-10-31T00:34:00.000+08:00

9 more days and counting..

so here i am.. in the middle of night busy blogging.. suppose to be sleeping for tmrw's appointment but decided to stayed up..

ive got nine more days to go for attachment.. stand up for the 9 days.. cant wait for the attachment to finish den start sch.. miss my friends.. wait for my return friends..

lately, raya has been hu haaing around.. haah wat a werd to use.. i tink my ferst raya outing with my friends are gona be this sat.. the silat grp.. but i hope those organisers please settle it la.. dont depend on pple too much k.. initiate is the best way..

and sadly, i wont be gg out with my syg for hari raya this year.. so sad.. cant take pic with u as per last year.. dun be sad k.. nnt u must come my house k.. i find one day den u cum..

so far not been tired and lazy to go to werk.. with the new batch in, more life is injected.. haha.. jia yo..

tmrw doc's appt.. hope it be fine.. and doc, wen u handle my leg, plz.. don twist and turn anyhow k.. i can still feel my leg .. pray hard..

till then.. wait to hear from me ya.. tke care..

i miss u badly that u owe me lots of hugs and kisses..
when can i get them???

2006-10-27T21:05:00.000+08:00

two weeks and still counting..

hari raya is here and i dont feel any semangat to beraya.. all because of this attachment.. shittos la kan..

life has been ok.. actually alot to update la.. maybe not today.. alot of things i wana reflect on myself..

i miss school and my friends.. and you..

2006-10-22T15:15:00.000+08:00

so.. here i am today with the second post of the weekend..

well right now people are busy with cleaining uo their houses and preparing for hari raya.. as for me, im done with mine.. haha good boy la kan.. so at this moment of time im just left with putting up the curtains and laying out the carpets..

well.. gf has been busy with her part with preparation..hmm.. how to go to your house this year hor? i hope the guys change it to sat so i can go out jalan raya and can go ur house as well..

ok.. the next post below is nothing actually..
it ended.. and so i swallowed it.. i noe it hurts but i have to respect it.. but then suddenly u said u lost everything.. but den now? told you long time before.. but then im only a friend.. i cant have any say.. a lost to me is still a lost.. but dun take it as a total lost..

remember who i am to you, and i will do the same as you do..

2006-10-21T03:33:00.000+08:00

first and foremost.. the most important thing..

A HAPPY DEEPAVALI TO ALL FRIENDS WHO ARE CELEBRATING IT... MAY U ENJOY THIS FESTIVAL OF LIGHTS!!!!

ok lets move on.. so this week.. whats the update.. there's alot of things that i wana update.. hmm u give me a moment yeah..

work.. work has been interesting yet tiring la.. since its the last week of deepavali and hari raya, alot of orders are coming in.. in order to meet the quota given, i must try to answer any call that comes in to the main line.. but the main objective is to get hamper sales.. not others.. shit.. this is hard la.. haiz.. the new interns have arrive to inject some life.. thank god you guys came.. 16 days and counting..

life.. life has been on the okok side la.. she is good.. im good.. we're good.. in malay we say alhamdullilah.. haha.. been lately following her around for shopping.. starting to like shopping.. but the only problem is that the places i go doesnt have the type of stuff i want.. and thanks to my lovely dear, she has hook me into this werd shopping..

school.. im starting to miss school days.. and speaking of school, ive oredi receive my timetable.. good la.. very reasonable compared to last year..

festive season.. as deepavali is today.. tues is hari raya.. i feel as if is very fast la the fasting month past.. and the mood for hari raya this year is very different.. like no mood to celebrate.. maybe havent inject some hari raya songs.. haha.. gg to do cleaning up of my jungle room soon..

more to come.. stay tune..

2006-10-15T20:05:00.000+08:00

in ConcLusion of 13 Oct 2006..

Lau Pasat, Clifford Pier, Esplanade, Marina Square, Shopping...

Thank you..

2006-10-14T15:07:00.000+08:00

hey.. life is hectic.. alot of werk to be done.. haiz.. simply tired with this IPP..

but then, im not giving up.. monday, they will be two more pple coming in and one will be assisting me.. haha.. at last got friend.. malay summore.. haha.. im counting down the days to freedom.. 19 more.. 10 nov is the date im waiting.. waiting for the day to go back to sch.. see my friends who i miss alot.. haiz.. faster come la 13 nov.. and i be back to sch.. haha.. wait for me my other friends..

anw.. hari raya is coming doks.. haha.. internally i feel excited la.. but externally im not showing signs of interest in celebrating in.. hmm.. this is funny but why hor??? but wth heck la..

so far life has been great.. but there is something i feel missing.. its not u though.. i think its my friends.. this attachment make me long2 time never see my friends.. just cant wait to go back to sch..

live life as per normal.. i understand..

2006-10-08T11:30:00.000+08:00

hi.. life has been busy during weekdays.. and life has been slow during weekends.. that the great thing.. but usually ive nuting to do during weekends.. sleep, face the comp and thats it.. haiz..

officially ive hang up my floorball stick for goodness stake.. good luck to you guys who is up for the selction.. all the best yah.. bring glory for the school..

bored.. bored.. bored..

aini.. where are u... hahaha...

2006-10-04T12:01:00.000+08:00

the moment i woke up today.. i felt a pain in my back.. very pain la.. as i stand up, the pain was worse and the headache, omg cant stand it.. so i just fell down to my bed..

now waiting for time to see the doc.. to my colleagues.. im sorry that im unbale to come werk.. its not i choose not to come but the pain is unbearable..

whats happening to me and my condition.. darn it la..

im giving clues at every end of my blog starting todae.. so if ure clever, find it out urself and tell me what im describing.. have fun folks..

warm pieces join together once again..

2006-10-03T21:21:00.000+08:00

hi people.. its oni tues and im very3 tired.. shit la.. no mood man..

alot of things happening.. damn.. help me..

i really miss you.. and i really need you.. plz..

2006-09-30T21:01:00.000+08:00

this is a post not related to life.. its just a creation..

life finding answers.. clues were given.. but can human intelligence solve it?

if love were meant to be blind, then what does it mean to those who are blind?
politicians having disputes over land and power.. wanting the world to know, they are mighty.. they are powerful.. but if they really are, why cant they hear those humans suffering just because of them?

hunters hunt for animals.. eyeing for their parts for m0ney.. but what if animals hunt man for food? isint is nature and part of the animal cycle? must it be only animals who die for man and not vice versa?

parents have children so that they can lighten up.. but why do some parents make their children life dark? fathers raping daughters.. parents toturing children.. what the hell were their reasons in bringing this children to life?

teachers educate students and pass down knowledge to them.. but why some teachers educate wrong stuffs? and whats more educate the bad stuffs to sutdents who are special and really need extra care..

2006-09-30T00:33:00.000+08:00

WEEKENDS HERE!!! AT LAST..

for a moment, i reflected back and i come out with a statement.. weekends are like the best days in the week.. here.. u get to enjoy and have a lot of rest.. n so weekend is here.. n im gona have alot of rest.. haha..

how life has been so far.. werk has been okay.. assigned to do new things.. telemarketing la dei.. new partner in werk.. ok enuf of werk..

life.. life has been great.. for a moment, my dream came true.. the risk i was talking and shitting all this while was worthwhile.. haha.. nvr been so happy in my life before.. haha.. dark clouds are shifting.. anw i shud not be to happy bout this.. now ive this chance.. i will make full use of this opportunity to repent my mistakes and create a better life for her and everyone..

i thank you alot for believing in me.. never did i knew this day would come.. tears of happiness and joy filled me.. thanks for trusting and loving me again.. i could never wish anyting greater den this could happen to me.. and rest assured, i will make u feel what love is about and not about hurt.. and im sorry for whatever has happened.. we will pull through thick and thin together.. thanks alot.. indy hearts you..

and so that is what life is happening right now.. haha.. tats all folks.. tataS..

2006-09-27T13:52:00.000+08:00

im like inside the office and doing nothing during lunch time. i cant possibly eat right.. so im like sitting down using the comp while i still can and wait for job to be given.. haha.. so wat did i do with the comp?

blog.. check mail.. frenster.. look at pple photo and videos at youtube.. wana use msn but abit scared.. haha.. n im fasting but i still look around to find diff makan places around singapore to bring my gf out.. haha..

faster pple.. give me suggestion.. tanks ya.. chill out.. see ya.. till then..

2006-09-26T21:46:00.000+08:00

hey pple.. updates and updates.. since ipp has started.. my body cells has weaken.. y? coz im falling sick every now and den.. so.. i took two mc oredi.. moeny gone just like dat.. sheesh..

so far life has been dull.. but with the fasting month here, it seems something diff.. have to adapt to the changes of waking up early.. but im used to it la..

one good thing bout sitting inside the office is that u stay indoors and u dun get tired easily.. but the bad thing is, u get bored easily coz the oni thing u can use there is nothing oni the phone to make phone calls.. haiz.. no comp no wat..

anyone have suggestions where to break fast this month? no geylang and bugis please.. somwhere else..

and to u, ive sumting up my sleeve for ur special day.. wait and see.. haha..

2006-09-24T22:22:00.000+08:00

everything is happening too fast.. but i think im not aware of my surroundings.. alot of things happened to my frens n im not aware of it.. what kind of friend i am.. to those friends, i hope u guys understand.. im really busy with attachment and weekends are the only days i rest n catch things up..

the fasting month is here.. huhu.. great2.. a chance to loosen up some weight n slowly get rid of this big stomach i have.. a month way patience is tested.. im rarely gona see her.. and im gona miss her alot..

talking about her..
the complete pic is about to be done.. but anything can happen.. i hope time will complete the picture into a beautiful one.. n the picture will last long..

i thank you for the smiles..
the smiles that ive longed for return..
let us go through the new chapter again..
colouring the future with colourful colours..
im loving you always..
insyallah..

2006-09-24T02:06:00.000+08:00

life has been better.. guess maybe its because the fasting month is here.. i thank god for having this opportunity to fast again..

life has been ok la.. she's doing well as well as i am.. only time can tell the whole change..

im gona miss her alot due to the fasting month.. take care people.. its rather late..

2006-09-16T14:28:00.000+08:00

peace.. its been a while since i blog.. yeah its been a while.. attachment fatigue and sickness of comp.. thats the reason..

alot of things has happen within this month.. ups and downs.. i myself dunno how to say.. whether it has been good or bad.. now i just live life like what it want to happen.. the urges of smile that cant be help.. the roll of tears that cant be help.. am i leaving everything to fate?

some people say im taking to hard.. but what was it tat i took too hard? simply what isit? can someone tell me..

i just do whateva i can to my ability.. isit wrong when ure lost and confused, u ask questions to people that might know the ans?

some people say im stupid.. some people say im blardy stupid.. sometimes i choose to beleive it.. is my life blind right now? am i taking a big risk that may either lead to two situation..

1st situation.. being happy and smilling.. chances for this to happen... unknown..

2nd situation.. dark clouds gather and block the path of light.. not being able to be myself.. picking up myself would be very hard.. chances of this to happen.. ultimately high..

thats what im juggling right now.. a big risk thats buzzing me around.. but im just gona take the risk.. coz i believe what eva happen in the future all in HIS hands..

i pray to god.. 4 a signal for my change.. a signal for happiness.. a signal for pain.. but the main thing is.. can i see it?

till next time my frens.. i pray for you guys too.. and especially to u.. who is always in my heart.. my soul.. and my life..

2006-08-29T21:41:00.000+08:00

frustration.. rebellious.. wateva la.. this feeling is so shit la.. why must i be this way???

im not smiling. im not being happy.. n most impt, im not being myself..

please make me smile..

2006-08-24T20:22:00.000+08:00

i did whateva i can as what u hve limit me.. its my last day to enjoy my freedom.. i wana to have smiles on it.. i wana to laugh on it.. plz.. hear my pleas.. hear my woes.. its all that i want.. to be happy for once..

someone that i love alot..
to see her smile and laugh..
seeing her enlighten..
makes my day..

2006-08-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

exams are finally over.. amin.. relax and destress.. destress?

attachment results are out.. im attached to Novena Investment Holdings Private Limited.. place at novena square..

poor factors: far, lonely and new environment..
good factors: motivated, pursue my best ability..

so to my friends who are lonely in their attachment, adapt fast and be motivated yeah.. this IPP will help alot in ur GPA.. good luck guys..

well life moves on.. but i still wonder why im not.. or m i moving on?

take me away.. far2 away..

2006-08-20T11:39:00.000+08:00

hey2.. exams are gona end soon.. short holidays are coming.. and i seriously mean short2 holiday.. around 6 days? pathetic right.. haiz.. tomorrow last paper and i be enjoying myself.. haha.. hurray2..

life has been great.. busy studying.. and everything is fine..life has been lifted with some hope.. i just hope that the hope will colour my life my back..

not much too blog now.. gona study.. take care guys..

you are only mine.. the only one who can lift my heart into the colourful world we are living now..

2006-08-17T21:11:00.000+08:00

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ku hanya pinta satu..

aku ingin kan mu..

aku sedar atas kesalahan ku..

kini aku belajar kesemuanya itu..

tidak akan ku ulangi, bisik hati ku..

aku mahu kau percayakan ku..

kerana kau sahaja yang boleh berbuat gitu..

berilah aku peluang..

buka la pintu hati mu..

segala ku katakan adalah yang tulus dan benar..

dengan peluang yang kau berikan..

aku akan buktikan segalanya..

jika hanya pintu hatimu terbuka..

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hanya kau di hatiku..

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buka la pintu hatimu..

my sincere thoughts about you.. please.. i really want you to open up your heart..

2006-08-17T20:35:00.000+08:00

im facing defeat without even fighting.. please shw me something dat dere is still something that im worth fighting for..

2006-08-17T09:58:00.000+08:00

stress.. stress.. stress.. so shitty.. exams are here.. one paper down.. later got one more.. den down left with two.. so shit la.. behind all this stress.. problems keep running in into me.. leg is getting worse.. and please dont let another shit happen.. and today attachment results is out.. i hope i be attached with someone from NYP la.. plz.. if not two and half months of loneliness.. all the best to myself and others who are having their exams..

2006-08-15T15:11:00.000+08:00

please let me have my life back.. loosing a fren is not what i want.. it hurt so much.. i wana smile.. i wana laugh.. i want my mind to be at peace.. but why isint it happening so.. y must i tear evrynite b4 i sleep.. please la.. im on the verge of having enough for evrything..

2006-08-14T13:24:00.000+08:00

sunday.. 13 august 2006.. a day which i will not forget.. alot of exciting happened and as well as sad moments..

for the first time in history of my life in silat, for the first time we were the overall champion in tunas kanak2 competition.. haha.. so damn happy la.. congrats to the kids who work hard for this.. you kids deserve this.. and to those trainers and guru, well done guys.. our hard werk pays off at last..

secondly, we won an important match against SIM blacks yesterdae.. it was an impt game for TAZ to beat them.. we were being the underdogs.. and in the end our strong determination and presistence won our game.. congrats to the whole team for the great wonderful spirit..

the two top paragraph was the good things that happen on that dae.. but this two things cant manage to put up with sorrow that im facing..

its hard being best friends with a guy when ure a girl..
its so much harder went u both start caring in a more-then-friends way..
the more painful things dat could happen is when u realise ure both off without each other..

the wrong way, no one ever does this..
we're the best of friends but at one time longed to kiss..
we have done tings in the opposite array..
but for us, maybe GOD intended it this way..

its meant for me and i realise that..

your short msgs make sense to me..
im being missed dearly by you..
i can sensed it without you telling me..
things didnt happen for a reason..
and the reason is you..

and this is for you..

2006-08-12T15:18:00.000+08:00

hey.. didnt went home yest.. went to accompany my friend to lepak since the night was damn boring.. manage to take the 2nd last train towards the destination.. lepak dere till the wee hours of the morning.. we've been screened by the police also.. haha..

alot of things are great at the moment now.. except exams la.. life has been great.. fun la should i say.. no more as the past.. and thats great..

your happiness is my only attention right now..
not anymore then that..
its ok if its not loved back..
if you're happy den i am..

2006-08-11T16:15:00.000+08:00

hey2.. exams are here guys.. so dun get angry if i rarely update my blog yeah..

national day has past.. the day where the nation celebrate its 41st birthday.. singapore quite old yeah.. haha.. anw the eve of national day, i went to meet up my fren at clifford pier and have a chat.. its been a long time we met and we sat and talk about our probs.. near evening, we went home and i head for silat meeting at sengkang.. so thats how i spent my national day eve..

so on national day.. morning i was particularly bored.. thought wana study but tv shows were great so i decided to watch.. around noon it was like a spoil national day as no one was going out.. so i stayed in my rrom and day dream..out of sudden wana write poem den i saw my phone got light.. haha sumone's calling la.. ans it and it was my fren.. haha.. so we went out and met at raffles to watch fire werks at nicoll highway.. the firewerks were damn nice la.. and wats more with great company the day was fill with enjoyment.. i wont forget that dae..

now i have a problem.. a big2 problem.. i just dunoe how to solve it.. she's oways in my mind.. i cant get her out of my mind.. can sumone help me wat to do.. dun tell me i love her.. coz im not suppose to.. cannot2.. i cant.. but let me confess to you.. thats if ure reading this la.. i admit that i am..

semasa kau di dakapanku,
aku berasa seolah-olah kau milikku..
tetapi aku sedar agar siapa diriku,
kau bukan milikku..

2006-08-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

hmm what should i post about today..
life has been okay so far la..project stress are almost over.. but now left with exams.. i think i can pull it through.. but i will la.. cant afford to extent my stay in sch for another semester..
k now floorball.. scored another goal.. haha.. but then my leg getting worse.. so scared la something really bad will happen.. thinking of taking a break for a while.. but then, i wana play still.. how?
ok la.. thats all for now.. u rock..

2006-08-06T09:01:00.001+08:00

hey people.. you wana noe what.. im so efking busy with life.. gosh.. projects.. presentations and all.. killing me man.. now adding salt to the wound is exams are coming la dei.. death is approaching..

ok lets talk sense.. besides sch.. life has been.. boring should i say? twisted my knee yet again.. this is the how my time i also duno.. i myself not sure why i am not bothered to just take care of my leg.. at at moment now, i just duno whats happening to myself either.. i just noe that im getting worse and worse.. something is wrong with me.. but ive yet to find out what isit..

love.. hah.. what should i say about this hah.. i was too late.. now she's gone.. i just miss her alot.. life.. has changed alot without you.. i understand what the definition of love is.. or should i say life.. in life there's two things.. love and death.. if you're ready for both.. then you're ready for life..

ndp is coming.. who i wana go out with to watch the fireworks.. actualy.. the firewerks is such a memorable experience and you should watch with someone you treasure.. but then who is the treasure in my life right now? if she is.. i wun.. i dunoe why la.. i just wont.. coz mayb i respect her.. ntah la geng.. lets plan la..

this heart will not stop beating..
time was too fast.. or i was too late..
the love has gone just like that..
leaving me alone deep under..

2006-07-28T09:57:00.000+08:00

hidup kami bagaikan anak-anak panah..

kesemua antara kita ada arah masing-masing..

tetapi apabila ditiup angin..

kesemua lari dari arah masing-masing..

inilah hidup..

kadang kala kami harus terima walau apa pun..

apabila kau di depan ku..

aku sentiasa hiraukan mu..

namun aku sedar akan kesalahan ku..

kini,

tiap kali aku bernafas..

wajahmu akan ku terbayang..

tidakku sangka..

begini akhirnya..

sunyi sepi hidup ini tanpa mu..

ku akui akar nilai cinta mu..

2006-07-17T11:21:00.001+08:00

hello pple.. im now like blogging once a week.. i realise that i only blog during this lesson.. ICT which has nothing to do with business.. haha..

so what has happen so far.. nohting much has happen la.. getting more busy and busier.. haha.. so far.. life has been ok.. im moving on with life but with things holding me back.. i dont think bout her much anymore but.. its hard for me la.. ok.. next..

werk has been great.. love werking dere.. pple dere make me love my werk more.. and i got increase in pay.. haha.. more money la.. haha.. school has been ok.. catching up with it as fast as i can.. and exams are coming in less then 3 weeks.. good luck to me.. silat has been ok.. floorball? lost the second game.. was quiet sad la we lost.. but its not over yet.. i believe we will strike back from our defeat.. to noorman, let our dream be alive.. we will make to div one next year..

she make me smile.. she make me live life.. i feel she's mine.. and she make me feel im hers.. but ultimately she's not mine.. i thank god i met her.. i thank god for she who enlightens me in this life.. but im worried.. what if i fall? i dont want to be hurt.. but i accept that this is life.. i'll just perserve.. she's nice.. she's lovely.. she's all that i need.. but why just she cant be mine? let this come true.. for this only..

2006-07-11T16:46:00.000+08:00

hey2.. long time neva update.. been busy with life la.. sorry to all my regulars readers..

alot things has happen.. lots of things have change.. well.. ive really apdated to my werk place.. people dere very the fun.. haha.. school has been ok.. im concentrating hard on the projects and test.. so far all test ive pass except for personal selling.. boo..

floorball has been great despite the injury im carrying.. after one game played, scored two goals and assist one.. aiming to be the top scorer in my club.. with the will and new determination i have, i believe i will do it.. insyaallah..

silat also been great.. but there's uncertainty within me.. hmm i wana solve that as soon as possible..

this past few weeks ive known alot of pple.. good la.. im able to mix around with pple again.. ive put the past behind me and im happy for that.. things are showing up lately.. but now im gona concentrate in my studies.. so ya.. till next time.. peace out ya..

2006-07-02T21:57:00.000+08:00

actually right, im back.. im back to my old self.. even the smile not there, i moving on.. not bad la.. m proud of myself.. told myself, i wont say and do things anymore.. i let god decide and i just carry on doing things that i should do.. a great determination i have.. i really thank god for this..

2006-05-30T11:01:00.000+08:00

haha.. someone is obsessing my mind.. someone is making me smile again.. alermak.. thank you alot la.. im going back to my old self.. thank you so much.. haha im saying this even when though ure not reading my blog.. haha.. lame sia.. just wana say , a hundred thanks for making me smile again.. even though its very2 weird..

sick.. sick and sick.. damn la.. today got test.. but study half way only.. coz i cant concentrate.. all because of this sickness la.. damn la.. but nvmd.. i think im gona make it for the test.. once school finish today, maybe go home straight or wait for her.. hmm dunoe la eh.. no plans yet.. but i need my sleep.. so farking tired.. haha..

i wont look back.. even when you're calling my name..

2006-05-29T11:17:00.000+08:00

life has been very2 tiring.. werk and werk and werk.. haha.. no life.. silat commitments is pulling down with heavy responsibilities.. this is so hard.. and..

she's gone.. but.. im ok with it..

flying free like a bird.. haha.. and some good news.. ALIJA is back.. haha.. a long lost fren.. since 5 years back? the last time i saw her was at a comp at joo chiat? from dere we lost contact.. and she's in dis school.. haha this little gerl has grown into a jambu minah.. haha.. wat sia.. no la.. she's a beautiful gerl now.. and she's a nurse now.. haha.. long time nvr talk to her.. good luck gerl..

school got lot of projects now.. test all coming out.. but got two weeks break soon.. sumwhere in the middle of june.. haha..

knee got twisted again while im teaching silat.. shit man.. the muscle tear again.. now fucking swollen.. cant straighten the leg and cant bent the leg much either.. wat rotten luck.. decided my mind of not going for the second op.. so going for traditional treatment..i leave my fate in the hands of god to save me from this test..

my heart belongs to you.. lady..

2006-05-22T11:09:00.000+08:00

after life full of roller coaster ride, im back to the normal speed and pace.. but sometimes there are rough patches ahead.. so now.. being single.. some good and bad points..

haha.. enough of that.. so lets talk about someting else.. hmm.. being get to know pple all around the country.. all thanks to my favorite website.. haha.. since i was 13 lei i was addicted to that website.. that website really change my life..

so ya.. now my mood was like work work and more work.. just earning money to clear those empty time in between.. the feeling is normal.. she's moving and thats good.. she found sumone new as a crush.. just praying for her, that if she's really serious bout that crush, all the best for her.. and may happiness surrround her all the time.. and to that guy, you are damn lucky la!! ahah..

so back to me, im ok.. everything's fine.. mom is great to me.. haha.. love you mom..

hmm.. how bout this, let me make a promise to myself.. from now on, i wana score good grades for my modules and graduate from this school by end of next year.. as for silat, i wana be a good coach to my students.. helping out in anyway i can.. hmm.. being a good son.. and that is a must.. and i wana change for the better.. hope i can get strength for that.. and for myself, living life to the fullest.. stay positive.. and ENJOY!!

2006-05-10T23:16:00.000+08:00

first and for most.. there's no need for the sorry.. its all over.. you closed the book so yeah.. no need for sorry.. it wun make me any better..

so what about life now.. hmm.. floorball training has started and i really look completely lost.. nvmd, should train more and i guess i be orite.. sometimes i thing.. im ok.. but actually im not.. why cant she get out of my mind? if she can why cant me? when on the train, i rmbr about her.. when ride bus, i rmbr her.. almost everywhere we got memories togeder.. aiya.. i know i cant think about that.. shit la.. i cant blame anything.. its damn hard and i know.. when i work also i think about her.. i cant put my mind straight and do work.. shit shit shit double shit..

plz plz plz.. i beg this to stop.. and one thing for sure..

i really miss her.. i really2 miss her.. everywhere i go now, i wish see to her smile.. and be in her arms.. as what she used to say, i can only wish.. she maybe laughing somewhere now.. but i can recall how many times i laugh.. one? two? three? i dunoe.. she has her grp of frens who can accompany her.. but im struggling.. i really2 miss her.. this is shit.. i cant sleep at nite.. and been a while since i have a good slip.. till then..

you're being miss..

2006-05-09T10:03:00.000+08:00

ok checkp up was so damn fast la.. came early abit then doc call me.. wah so good ah no need to wait.. so doc examine and ask about my leg.. was fine.. he twist my leg left and right and it went both ways.. haha so flexible ah my leg.. told me an operation need to be done asap..

now im in a dilemma.. to go or not.. but i told doc im not gona do it.. he told me my leg is vulnerable to injuries.. so ya .. heck care the possibilities of getting the injury again.. im gona wait till next year.. aiya, if its twisted, den someone just push it back again la.. haha

floorball is starting back soon.. and im gona play la.. haha.. i dont care about my leg.. i just dont care.. its my passion.. and who gona stop me?? haha.. play and play.. i will achieve my goal of wearing the school jersey..

the feeling now is diff.. still devastated but i have to move.. i have to move, i told myself.. let me have the strength.. let me.. oh plz.. i beg you..

life was fun with you

2006-05-09T00:14:00.000+08:00

when i close my eyes i see you..
when im resting, i feel you are just next to me..
your smell makes my tears roll down..

a hug that i was forlon waiting..
a kiss that i never get for the last time..

as i walk down the places we went, something strucks..
seeing love couples aches my heart..

listening to songs reminds me of you..
camera whoring was brought by you..
how can i do that without you now..
how can i do that with the loss of you..

move on i say to myself..
leaving our memories behind..
painful i can feel..
is you that i cant see..

2006-05-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

and there was there.. she left.. we broke up.. its a sad ending.. but this is usual in the love life.. again i fell.. but whats the cause this time round.. lets take a look..

maybe because we didnt spend time togeder? maybe what.. for all i know.. she was in my heart all this while.. i never forget bout her.. even im busy.. its just that wen im busy, i really ccant have the time to pick up my phone and stare at it for few minutes..

all this while.. ive been waiting to be brought to somewhere.. well people intend to learn places.. ok enough of bringing out the past.. its all over.. but this is very hard for me.. she still cant see and understand it.. nevertheless.. what else can i do.. hmm.. ive tried my best but it does not work out.. i just need to let go this out.. ive been keeping it inside.. but to who shall i do it..

sometimes mom are the best person in the world.. and i guess im gona talk it out to my mom.. well i hav to.. coz i cant keep running away from this.. its like the end of a chapter for me and its time for me to move on.. i noe she's gona read this.. and i noe you are reading.. for more i purposely let it open..

well.. it was nice to love her.. she kept me smiling.. and i was filled.. but i didnt expect it to turn out.. i want to return but she doesnt.. guess there's no more hope.. she closed the door tightly.. locking it with all the chains and locks in the world.. but i guess.. she gona fall for someone soon.. i have this feeling.. we'll see whether is gona be true or not..

well as for me, i cant feel rite now.. i cant smile.. i cant be happy.. well.. let me put back my shattered heart pieces back togeder again..well someone gona bring back my smile to me again.. i duno who.. mayb you who are reading this? everything gona be like last time.. smile with mask.. putting up a mask is much better then u be truly happy.. but the only thing is that you're cheating yourself..

so.. i just dunno how long this healing gona be.. the last time it took was 2 years.. guess ive no idea how long this would take.. all in gods hand.. i just leave it to HIM.. he has the power.. he has the say.. i just need this to let i out.. or else im gona have a breakdown..

and to you who are reading this, as i advice, dunt look back.. someone else out there is waiting for you.. go.. dont lock your heart or you loose out.. if you love him, then let open your heart.. failures are part and parcel of life.. and control your tears.. remember, dont close your heart.. if you love him, then love him fully.. let me be and example, of the mistake we have done together.. assalamualaikum..

so in conclusion guys, what i believe so far in this relationship is true.. you may be the one who teach her and love her the most.. but you maybe the one who she didnt love the most..

2006-05-05T22:37:00.000+08:00

malam ditemani bintang dan bulan,

hati dilayani degup demi degupan.

siapa di sana, aku ingin tahu,

sesak nafasku pabila kau pergi.

hujan turun basahi bumi,

senja malam digin, dirasai cengkerik.

lamunan panjang melamuni aku,

sedih pilu sering ku merayu.

waktu petang manusia bergegas,

mengejar keretapi untuk pulang.

sejarah silam kerap ku kenang,

hati menangis tidak terhingga.

bayi menangis dahagakan susu,

kedahagaan hilang dengan kasih ibu.

kau pergi tinggal kan aku,

adakah ini satu penyelesaian?

2006-05-04T09:35:00.000+08:00

life is beautiful.. but lets not darken it.. colour it with the memories in life.. cherish it.. enjoy it.. it may happen not only once.. it can happen twice or all the time..

enjoying life has always enlighten people.. smiles all over their faces.. everybody looking for that something.. something that make them complete.. but human will never be complete..

if you are lonely, you find someone.. friends can keep you company.. laugh when there's jokes all around.. play when you want.. but who's there when you are lonely? you can find a thousand laughing friends but what about crying friends? should this be the time when love comes in? love? which is to share every wonder and gift in the world to someone you love?

happiness and sorrow? is this the kind of friend you are looking for? what if in the end it turn out to be so hurting? so hurting that you lost your friends and you got no one to turn to when you're hurt?

its life my friend.. its life.. learn it.. live it.. face it..

2006-05-04T09:24:00.000+08:00

looks like its gona start over again.. the story has ended.. dark clouds covering me again.. what should i do? im now trying to stand up own my own feet again.. helplessly trying to look into the new world.. its all over.. who else can enlighten this heart.. its not she.. looks like i have to search for the next life..

life was fun with you.. smiles was always there on my face.. i thank you alot for all the memories we shared all this while.. thanks..

well life has back to normal ways.. living life single and free to roam? roam? haha.. what a word.. school has start as usual.. all those usual tutorials, lab and lectures.. im keeping myself busy with school, work and silat.. yeah no life.. but no choice.. only time can heal the wound.. staying strong.. need time to look and find myself back.. a lot of things happen within a short time..

im trying to stay strong for you.. dont you leave me yet.. your disappearence means alot to me.. everyday i pray you could stay longer.. and i hope my prayers will come true.. every time i think of you right now, i recall how much you showered me with love and care.. i will never forget those days when im sick and you took care of me.. you are just the best.. a good friend.. stay strong.. i be there for you when you need me..

2006-04-20T09:35:00.000+08:00

changing of blogskin..

hey pple, watch out ya im changing my skin soon.. there will be another cool picture of me.. i promise a new cool skin from me..

TEP is over..

haha.. guess wat, TEP is over la.. haha.. after one week den i talk about this.. haha.. sorry la was busy..

2006-04-10T08:56:00.000+08:00

as usual.. a week of no life.. busy with commitments..

TEP is ending soon.. oh god thank you so much.. this thing is really testin my body.. and lucky my body still cant tahan.. few more days and its all over.. but then, while friends are having holiday, me and some others, cant enjoy it.. back to school studying.. so no break at all..

at last the PA silat comp is all over.. 4 golds, 2 silver, 4 bronze from my team.. was very disapointed we didnt win the overall champion.. we were that close to win it for the first time in history.. and its all because of the stupid one sided juries.. last year, we lost by gold, this year by silver.. oh god when will be our turn.. the lost is so bad on me.. as a team manager, i felt so dissapointed.. i cant help it.. but whatever they say, its parts and parcel of a game.. there are bound to be losers.. looking on the bright side.. four golds is not bad.. im very proud of those winners.. especially, for the gerls team.. even though it was their first time, they managed to beat the powerhouse.. haha.. kudos girls.. as for lokman, a thousand congrats to you for being the most improved students among all... and as for the whole team.. im very proud of all of you.. you make the club proud of you..

life is getting much boring and boring.. even someone tag me and ask me to wake up and get a life.. haha.. that is so true.. no life.. when can i get a life? gf was busy with sch.. and again getting busy.. its ok.. i cant blame her.. cause sch comes ferst den aniting else.. dun blame yourself ya.. guess i have to find my own entertainment.. good luck to me in finding a new life to break through this boredness of life..

2006-04-03T16:31:00.000+08:00

there is a person who hates me alot.. so i recall what wrong i did.. and the answer is nothing.. so what ive got to say.. here it is..

ive done no wrong..
so back off you tit..
if you hate guys..
it has nothing to do with my business..
you are such a SPOILER!!!

there you go as what i have to say.. anyone have any say can feel free to mail me yah..

busy.. busy.. busy is the word.. no time.. no time.. no time.. but nvmd u just concentrate on your work ya.. i be fine..

i hope things will go back as per normal like last time.. hope to see the rod, glenn and mal back togeder.. haha.. oh those times..

2006-03-31T08:48:00.000+08:00

all to an end..

its been a while i blog about real things.. i guess.. im back from exploring.. ya let me tell you guys what happen all this while..

Rejects Chalet 2006

this chalet will a memorable and a learning chalet for me.. it was a successful failure event.. this is for my year three students who are graduating.. this is a chalet where most of them are meeting for the last time before they step into their different paths of life.. here, i see friendship being tested and realise their bond was too strong to be broken.. nothing could come through them.. even though there are misunderstandings, their power of giving in really touch everyone hearts.. kudos to my senior friends.. hope you guys will succeed in your paths in the rear future.. takan rejects kene rejected.. haha..

no life schedule..

life been busy for me.. sch on weekdays, weekends werk and silat comp.. been tiring.. attachement is ending soon but there's no break.. so im gona study all the way till 2007 april.. shyte yeah.. haiz.. but its ok la.. just bear with it.. i hope to get more income..

birthday coming in a month but i think i will be busy with it.. since arsenal are on the way to semifinal, i wan a arsenal jersey.. so im waiting for my next pay to get it.. haha.. arsenal arsenal all the way..

nyonya.. hearts u..

2006-03-29T14:27:00.000+08:00

the war that never ends on earth..

life keeps revolving around..
always going up and down..
never in life time turns back..
only he has the power to arouse that..

hate is the thing that is among us..
both evil and good side..
let us not continue hatred among us..
as disaster will struck by..

stabbing at the back cause pain..
a pain that you'll never forget..
dont let history be the knife..
the knife that will stab your back..

happiness will filled us all..
if only we strive to achieve it..
giving in is the one..
the one who will let them through thick and thin..

adore friendship..
hate foes..
let this life be tied..
with friends and joy..

2006-03-27T09:13:00.000+08:00

torn into pieces..

the pieces of the shredded heart lies on the floor..
fill with blood and tears..
somone wonders, was there a war?

never in life this had happen..
was this fate or revenged..
fools let this happen..
because they want to be savaged..

giving up is common..
fighting depends on fire..
loosing like a moron..
winning with the wire..

love is blind..
disable by fate..
once recovered..
gone dismay..

did they or did he?
the answer still wonders..
how can he..
let things off easily..

all he hope was to back with her..
it did happened..
but could they be happy again?
it lies with the girl herself..

seek for understanding..
dig for believe..
gain it when found..
loose it when shrugs..

2006-03-26T19:29:00.000+08:00

silent rose..

he was busy..
commitments that was needed to be feel..
it aint easy..
but why cant she see?

she wasnt happy..
he was frame..
wat she is doing..
that left him unsaid..

life is full with questions..
questions that can be fooled..
if there's no compromisation..
den he will be doomed..

happiness can be rejuvinated..
does not need an instant or distant..
so let things be hatred.,
so things can be distant..

2006-03-19T00:13:00.000+08:00

she..
as she walk down the corridor..
silence creeps away..
noise from horror..
kids get gay..

never thought that this would happen..
but this was expected..
helpless she can be..
lifeless u will be..

she rain her cheeks..
leaving pain out of feel..
be like a warrior from greeks..
and slowly we peel..

love is a strong word to use..
wonder how they survive..
left alone was bored..
being sible day in and out..

it takes two hand to clap..

2006-03-16T22:03:00.000+08:00

he's living a simple life..
a life that could turn wonders into horrors..

resting the restless, defeats the purpose..
dont ever do things without a purpose..
just hope for the best, if things happen..
as the best sometimes lead to dreams being dampen..

he's writing this for she to learn..
a msg beneath a thousand words..
never leave any holes behind..
as they maybe, really unkind..

he leave you a note, for you to read..
a nice person and kind indeed..
never take advantage of it..
as he may leave without saying a thing..

as she may think this is nothing..
he will be prepared to do something..
a final decision will be done..
leaving a heart, a broken one..

2006-03-16T08:49:00.000+08:00

sorry regulars cause i didnt have a chance to update this few days.. very busy.. n here, a whole lot of chunk of what im gona tell everyone wat has happen..

busy schedule.. the projects are coming in and the submission dates are getting closer.. the flash thingy is worrying everyone.. even me.. im not confident of my flash coz im doing it by myself n doing whatever i can.. the perth trip has to be propose bout its marketing plan.. n we are werking on it..

floorball stuffs.. alot happen with floorball this week.. had to assist the president with booking of court and busy about the boards.. well i was slowly recovering and i came back to trainin.. thought of changing position, but cant adapt to it as i was more of an attacking player.. played quite well.. but had to play catiously.. thanks to my knee guard..

silat commitment.. this is the one which make me really busy.. being the team manager of the team, i have to do the administration of the team and their entry form.. today at 3 is the deadline and i have not done sum things which suppose to be done.. a lot of tings totally slips my mind.. there come where i need an assistant in silat.. really need one to keep track of my activities and task.. comp will start next week.. i aim high for the team n let me bring my team high up there, god..

annivesary.. this time round something was amiss.. i guess it was me.. ive to blame a part of it.. im sorry n im really am.. im werking out somthing to throw away that fake smile of urs.. to tell the whole world was great.. but the feeling isint.. happiness was nt dere on the day it self.. find.. find the clue beyond the lie itself..

as memories lay down my memory..
the lie was the one which was beneath the pie..
no one knew, the tears when away..
the last breath was the one..
the one that could change the one..
so there,
look at him, treasure him..
he would not be there always..
let love be there as it doesnt wana pay..

2006-03-08T00:48:00.000+08:00

im really confuse la.. i really duno wat to do..

im opening anoder blog.. a secret one with only selected pple will know.. in there, all my sorrows, misery, un happiness will be dere..

flying around the open sea..

2006-03-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

mixed emotions engulf my heart.. a thousand thoughts drowns me..

what can i do to make it ok.. im not me.. n me not i..

its been real hard this few days.. or should i say weeks.. its real hard.. i cant seem to move on.. n if u follow my entries, its true about what i say.. something were to happen and it happened.. haiz.. i damn f**king stress, depress and ass..

till then.. the poor found the gold..

2006-03-07T01:18:00.000+08:00

its always able to help others but cant help yourself.. why is this so..

not been good this past week and the new week.. alot of things to do.. not only personal stuffs.. but school and friends.. one after another come.. non stop.. when one ends, the other pops up from no where.. must put pop up blocker..

believing the insane could be real..

2006-03-01T23:39:00.000+08:00

bond getting closer between my TPRD teamates.. thats good.. hope our group will prosper and succeed.. OUTING tmrw ya? fun3..

standing strong.. falling fast..

have a feeling.. somthing is gona hapen soon..

2006-02-26T23:45:00.000+08:00

what a short weekend.. simply just few things that feel up my weekend.. sat and sun work.. ok thats all.. and im working while im sick.. haha.. fever is in me.. my body cells are tired oredi..

and its gona be all the same again.. weekday sch.. weekend werk.. no life..

as for u gf, please dont worry bout me.. i b fine.. u worry bout ur exams k.. study hard.. dun stress.. i noe u can do it.. u have my support.. muakz..

and it continues tmrw..

2006-02-24T16:46:00.000+08:00

its so damn bored la.. its a friday, and the weekend is here.. so here's plan for the week..

friday - right after school, straight to silat training.
saturday - work from 10 to 6.. nine hours of none stop werk..
sunday - silat in the afternoon.. mayb cycle with man in the morning..

what a life man.. thats how i spent on evry weekend.. i need to get some enjoyment.. die.. anniversary is getting close.. few days left.. and money? haha..

and i notice something this few days.. people i dun realli know call my name in sch.. its like while walking at cheers or what, pple go hi indy.. n erm, hi.. haha.. den keep asking yuan kai who they are.. ooh whateva.. but i will try to get to know those people and try to make frens..

since the year three students have completed their last paper, we are declared seniors in this sch.. haha.. thats so fun.. cant wait for the next batch of freshie to come in.. gona be OGL again.. yipeess.. n i wana win that OGL award this time round.. gona rock orientation 2006.. here i come..

2006-02-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

its the starting week of the new stopover, TPRD.. three werds to describe it so far.. slack.. slack.. slack.. tings i do for the day, have meeting, do abit of project, sleep and wallk around the school.. very interesting.. body getting tired, each and everyday.. i dunoe why.. getting sick soon.. can estimate the time to fall sick is near..

things are not gg well at home.. dunoe why mum is like that.. im sorry for what ive done.. so this week is just, wake up morning, breakfast, go sch, go back from school then it continues to the next morning.. its mainly pure silence.. it just sucks..

the sch is getting empty and emptier.. pple all arond sch are having their exams.. wish them all good luck and pass their exams.. to you too my dear gf.. u will be busy and please have enough rest.. ur bf loves u..

an examanation tip: have at least 5 hours slep before paper and do not memorise last min as it will make u forgot wat u have learnt.. its true..

2006-02-19T21:38:00.000+08:00

sat was great.. went to two concerts.. GPA and the rock concert by Temasek Sec.. actually its !Smashd..

ferst and for most, would like to congrat AMALINA for acting a small little cute boy.. u were good.. and especially cute dressing up like a baby.. congrats for gettig in the finals.. i be supporting ur sch in the final.. so just tell me wen it is ya..

secondly tanks to AISHAH and QAYUUM for asking me to got to the concert.. two words to describe that concert.. ROCK MAN.. haha.. and tanks for inviting RONIN.. if not for them, it wudnt be a sucess..

now, am tired.. sleepy.. but dun wana sleep.. tmrw.. going to new stopover.. please let be an easy one..

2006-02-15T23:47:00.000+08:00

counting down the days to leave MRC.. but gona miss the pple there.. went for TPRD briefing.. looks ok la.. but sure to slack wen i get there next week..

i played soccer for the ferst time since i got the ligament tear.. skills was so damn rusty.. n stamina? oh god.. drop la.. pple in MRC are great.. really2 just great.. wonder how TPRD gg to be..

went off to silat..

2006-02-14T23:58:00.002+08:00

claim half day today.. when to mac and met long time never lepak frens.. all of us now are like rockers.. almost evry five mins, that will be a flashback on the malay movie "rock".. to me its a good movie.. for those who enjoy malay rock songs.. give it five popcorns.. haha

went of to spent some moments with gf.. travel around train for almost one and half hour coz dunoe where to go.. lastly punggol was the place.. reach dere and the place was like so ghostly.. so malaysia.. except for the train la.. came out and bought some tidbits.. coz at ferst thought there was shopping centre. but there isint.. saw a 'kampong' but then gf say its like the istana menanti.. the house which could not be torn down..

weather was hot.. so decided to bring her to punggol beach.. dere we had picnic.. not alot of pple..n rili not alot.. a good place for picnic.. infront of it there is the tanjong pelepas port.. which is johor la.. we had some toking gg on.. den suddenly we heard the azan.. it was across the sea coz there was a mosque..

when home around 6.. as usual, journey home was quiet.. sliping duh.. haha.. den gf saw someone holding BK plastic den we wen to BK and eat.. went home after that.. nice day it was.. fun, laughter and joy.. the last b4 she gets busy studying for exams..

Places to go with gf:
- Marina Square REGGAE shop (Check price for jacket and shopping)
- Mount Faber
- Liang COurt

Crazy things to do with gf:
- DUCKS tour
- Bus tour around singapore

Places to eat with gf:
- Satay Club
- West Coast (ayer Rajah wat ting i dunoe)
- Changi Village
- Woodlands Checkpoint